10 NEW things to add to my bucket list – POST OP!

Do you have a bucket list? I’m sure most of us do, or even if we don’t have an actual written list, there are things in our head that we dream of doing one day. Some of mine currently include things like: living overseas for at least 1 year minimum, going to Greece, and learning a new language (and actually speak it!).

But, I’ve been thinking recently, are there things that I never added to my list because of my health or weight? Yep, there sure is. So, I decided to think up 10 new things to add to my bucket list that I think I’ll definitely be able to do post-op.

1. Go Zip Lining
Ah, zip lining! I’ve had so many opportunities to do it but I never did because of weight limits or because I didn’t think I could handle the course! No more!

2. Go to a public pool party
I know this one isn’t extreme and I’ve never been one who’s hid herself in bathing suit covers, but being somewhere like a pool party in a bathing suit did wreck my nerves. I’ve always wanted to be on vacation and just be comfortable enough to attend one and be comfortable to swim up to the bar (even if after RNY, it’s just for water! lol)

3. Go go-kart racing
Normally, go kart racing doesn’t appeal to me. It’s not something I immediately think of doing, but the last time I went go-kart racing, I couldn’t buckle the seat belt which was horrifying! So, I want to do it again, just because I can. Period.

4. Attend a large music festival
Again, this is one that doesn’t seem like it is weight related, but for me it kinda is. I’ve attended music festivals, smaller ones, and have always been uncomfortable because of my weight. Either dancing around or just from the temperature (since they’re typically in warm weather). I want to be able to attend a music festival and not feel like I have to cover up or be sweating like a pig and being self conscious about it. I want to just enjoy the music and move my body!

5. Run a 5K
Since I’ve started to put weight back on, I haven’t been able to run. I never was able to run a full 5K. I’m praying post-RNY that I will be able to get back to running and run a full 5K!

6. Climb an indoor rock wall
This always looks super dope and I’ve always been too chicken, again because of my weight and well, my lack of strength in my arms.

7. Go to an indoor trampoline house and bounce around like a kid!
Read that sentence again. ‘NUFF SAID.

8. Do a boudoir photo sheet.
You would think this would be about my husband, and yes, he will be a recipient of the photos, but this is on my bucket list for ME. I want to do a classy, but sexy photo shoot of me loving my body (even if I have extra skin!!). Embracing my new beauty.

9. Renew my wedding vows in a brand new dress.
I didn’t lose weight for my wedding like I had hoped. In fact, I gained. Thankfully I still fit into my wedding dress (after being altered though) and I was just not happy with my size during that time. I want to do a new photo shoot with my husband, maybe to celebrate one of our anniversaries and renew our wedding vows and renew our photos together.

10. Take dancing classes.
I danced for 15 years and when I stopped in my late teens, I packed on the weight. Dancing is a passion of mine and I would love to be able to get back into dancing all the time, without feeling self conscious or out of breath within a minute!

What will you add to your bucket list?

The countdown…

Technically 40 DAYS.

Until what? My last weigh in before my surgeons team can submit for approval for my RNY! It just got real. I mean, it’s been real the whole time, but it’s getting so close now! Most of me is excited, but there is a part of me that is still freakin’ out. At the end of the day, it’s a major surgery and complications can happen!

I had my appointment on Monday with the PA and nutritionist. We discussed Barrett’s Esophagus and why my surgeon does not do sleeve if you have BE, then Calvin and I unloaded a TON of questions on her. Most of my questions were about long-term RNY life. This is what I have been panicking about the most. I’m only 31 years old, will be having RNY (which has malabsorption issues), and I plan on having a family and being around for them for a very long time. She reassured me that they do have patients who are 10+ years out who are fine and healthy. She also assured me that I will be asked to do annual bloodwork to ensure my vitamin levels are all good. She also assured me that for the first year, they will be seeing me quite often. So, all of this made me feel pretty good.

Calvin chimed in with his own set of questions too, which I am so thankful for. I’m so thankful that he takes the time off to even come to the appointments with me. He has been a nervous nelly since the beginning, more so than me, but because of that, he thinks of great questions that I’m not even thinking about.

As the PA answered all of our questions, my wall started to drop about being scared for RNY. There are parts of me that are admittedly still nervous, but I am giving those worries to God. Whatever happens is all in God’s plan and I need to trust that. I don’t know what his plans are for me yet, but I will soon find out!

After we talked to the PA, the nutritionist came in to see how I’ve been doing and I was so honest with her where I’ve been struggling. I have not been perfect at all, but I am sure as hell trying to make improvements. I shared some of my recent meals with her, like THIS loaded cauliflower waffle…. My mouth is watering looking at it. I asked all of my questions about absorbing vitamins, how can I ensure I get all my nutrients met, should I be worried about high cholesterol with all this protein, and uh…. what about pooping? LOL serious stuff. All the recipes I have found have been loaded with cheese and gooeyness, that it concerns me about cholesterol (even though I modify recipes left and right) and all that protein, doesn’t exactly keep things flowing. So… a girl had to ask!

Sadly, my NUT is leaving and I will have a new one next meeting, but I feel good and she said she felt good about where I am not. I haven’t really lost much/any weight, but I have not been gaining and she see’s that I am trying to make changes and trying new things in preparation for my new tool.

So, in a few hours, I went from worried hypochondriac to empowered future bariatric patient! I only have two more tests to do, which I am doing in the morning, and then it’s just waiting until my appointment and hopefully I will get a surgery date soon!

And…. check this thing out. Helloooooooooooo nurse. This baby was so FREAKIN good! So good, we made it again a few days ago. This thing had me wanting to start sharing recipes that I’ve tried on here! So, COMMENT if you want me to!

… and if you’re in this process with me, do you have your date yet? I will be sitting on the bench in May, so I’m looking for buddies around the same time!

The never ending phase of testing…

YO! I’m back.

Seriously, though. The past few weeks have been extra crazy. In the past two weeks, since I blogged last, I decided to start up my own small business (still in the VERY early phase!) which has taken up an insane amount of my time trying to get that off the ground. Plus, I’m in that point of pre-op where I feel like the tests will never end.

In actuality, it was only 2 tests, but I’ve been trying to get all my appointments squared away prior to surgery. I had my second weigh in my with doctor and I lost a whopping 2lbs since my first appointment to start my doctor supervised nutrition. I’m doing Weight Watchers, since my insurance allows it and my doctor is happy with me doing it. In the 3 weeks leading up to my doctors appointment, I wasn’t losing a thing! If I’m being honest, I could’ve tracked better and ate better foods and not indulged when I did. But, when I finally started working out more, more than just walking, I finally saw some change. *Phew.

So, I’m trying to really focus on getting my workouts in and really be good about tracking. I’ve been cleaning up what foods we have in the house. Not bringing home all sorts of chocolate and trying all sorts of things that I see other VSG patients getting the OK to eat (Hello, sugar free popsicles). I’ve been trying all sorts of protein too, to try and prep myself for my new life and what I might like (although, I am aware that my tastes may change, and hey, I’m cool if they do!) So, please, any support from anyone reading this would be so amazing!

Last week, I had my psych evaluation and my endoscopy all in the same day. I was super nervous for my psych clearance, I don’t know why. But she was dope and I had no problem opening up to her. Not at all what I had expected, but she made me comfortable which I needed. After that, I had my endoscopy, which went well!

I’m thankful that all the people my surgeon is referring me to are excellent at what they do. They know my surgeon, they make this process easier for me, because it’s easy to get confused! I didn’t known what to expect for an endo and I was surprised when it only took a few mins. While I waited in the hospital bed, I prayed and God answered my prayers. Nothing serious to report from my endo. I have a very small hiatal hernia and some signs of acid reflux, which even with that, I am thankful it’s not a large hernia and something worse like GERD or something.

Tomorrow morning is my bloodwork. Then that’s it for testing until I see my surgeons PA later this month and from what I know, more tests!

I appreciate all the testing, but good God, it’s exhausting.
Anyone else feel overwhelmed with all the testing?

Why Blog?

Ciao! Hello!

As of today, right now, this moment (…. or actually 15min ago) I decided that I am going to blog my VSG (vertical sleeve gastrectomy) journey. I’ll be sharing it here on this blog with you. Whoever you are, reading this.

Why? I’ve tried to blog a million times. I never kept with it or just didn’t know what to say. At this point in my life, however, I think I will have quite a bit to blog about. I know on this journey, I’m going to have a lot of ups and downs and will want to share or vent, or just track my experience.

Enter this blog, to fill all that.

So I will get into all the details in future posts about me, why I chose VSG, where I’m at in my the process, and so on, so be on the lookout.